Because I simply love you

Chapter 398: Life is too short

With Jianyu’s entrance, the elders glanced at each other. They understood.

Serena was surprised and a little excited at the same time. But she was nervous too.

Chen Liling smiled. “Good that you came, Jianyu. We have to meet Nana so you can stay here and take care of Serena.”

The others nodded in agreement.

Only Jianyu and Serena were left alone. He sat down beside her.

The doctor said how he told her everything, including the fact about her unable to become a mother. Jianyu asked what her reaction was, and he said that she just quietly listened to him. She didn’t interrupt him or got panicked, learning such harsh truth. After a few moments, she slowly nodded and didn’t say much after that.

But Jianyu understood that it must have deeply affected her. She was simply controlling her emotions. There was no way a woman wouldn’t feel disheartened.

Jianyu asked in a low voice, “How are you feeling now?”

Serena nodded. “I am fine.”

“That’s good.”

She stared at him and quietly said, “Jianyu.”

“Hm?”

“You are an idiot.”

Jianyu blinked his eyes. “What?”

Serena bit her lower lip. “Of course you are. Weren’t you waiting for for…your child for so long? How could you choose me over his life?”

Jianyu was silent.

Tears pooled in her eyes. “Even if I had died, so what? I have lived for twenty-three years. That was enough. But the child wouldn’t even have seen this world yet. He wouldn’t have been able to step into this beautiful world. He couldn’t have experienced anything. What would have I done even if I lived more as compared to ou-your baby? How could you decide to let him go?”

She sniffled. “Plus, d-don’t you hate me? Don’t you loathe my very presence? You tolerated me only for the child’s birth, and now when you could have finally gotten riddance from me when you were so close in getting your baby, you chose to save my life instead of him? Are you stupid? How could you save someone you hate?”

Jianyu said nothing.

He didn’t know why. Serena was right. The decision should have been so easy to take.

Yet, when he thought between his child and Serena, he felt as if his heart was ripped apart when he imagined that Serena wasn’t there anymore.

A world without her…felt simply too terrifying and lonely for him.

It was a different thing that he hated her and didn’t want to see her again. But if the cost of never seeing her again meant her death, then no! He rejected that very notion. Death meant that he would completely lose her forever. Her existence, her presence in this world, would be gone. Forever…

And his child?

Yes, he felt pained and disheartened for letting him go, but he thought…just for a moment, he thought that perhaps he could try a second child with Serena in the future. At that time, he didn’t know about her condition. But even if he did know, he would have made the same decision.

This incident and the fact that he was so close to losing Serena forever made him realize that life was too short to hold onto such hate.

She hurt Jianyu. He hated her. But if he had to choose between his hatred and her life, then he suddenly felt as if his contempt for her was so shallow and meaningless.

In comparison to her cold, lifeless body that would be forever buried under a tombstone, what did his hatred amount up to? It meant nothing.

She would be gone. She would cease to exist in his life. And what would that leave him with?

…Just a cold and lifeless heart in his chest just like her body in the cemetery.

“Jianyu?”

Serena’s call snapped him out of his daze. “Hm?”

“You…where were you lost? I am asking how you could choose to save me? The child was more important!”

“You stop thinking about that.” Jianyu coldly said.

“I won’t.” Tears rimmed her eyes. “Thankfully, the baby is fine, but if something were to happen to him, then after the Tangs, I would have never forgiven you for choosing me over him. My life means nothing anyway.”

“Shut up! Stop with that nonsense.” Jianyu was getting annoyed. He understood her feelings as a mother, but the way she took her life so lightly irked him.

“Plus I-I…cannot even become a mother anymore…” she sobbed.

Jianyu froze.

“You…perhaps, you could find and marry another woman in the future and have the joy of becoming a father. It is not impossible for you. But w-what about me…?”

Jianyu was stunned.

He angrily laughed, and a dangerous fire lit in his heart. He grabbed her chin and narrowed his eyes as he forced her to look at him.

“You think my feelings are that fickle that I would find another woman to give me a child because you cannot give me one?”

The light in her gaze dimmed, which made Jianyu even angrier.

“Tell me!”

“Why is it not possible?” She softly whispered. “Don’t you hate me? Would you have thought about having another child with me? And now…you loathe me, and on top of that, I have become d-d-defective to bear any child. Would you have really let the Chen family be without an heir for the rest of your life? Would you never think of what happens after you retire as the CEO? You-you would need someone to hand over the reins of your business…So naturally, you would d-definitely find another woman-“

But before she could say anything else, the volcano inside Jianyu’s heart erupted, and it violently burst out as he fiercely crashed his lips on hers.

Serena widened her eyes in utter shock, but Jianyu didn’t give her any time to recover.

He grabbed her head with his hands and swept his lips over hers in fervent desperation. He was so agitated with her words just now that he pressed his lips so deep not to give any breathing space for her. He hungrily moved in all angles with their lips rubbing even fiercer than before.

Serena already started to feel dizzy, and an intense heat seared throughout her body. She was breathless, but that wasn’t enough for him.

Jianyu squinted his gaze, clutched her hair tighter, and bit her lip hard as if to punish her until they both tasted the metallic blood.