Because I simply love you

Chapter 460: Never regretted it

Silence. Absolute silence.

Shinfelt so quiet that even the sound of the crashing waves and strong wind blowing past him didn’t make any difference. The only words resounding in his ears were ‘Because I am pregnant!’

That one sentence blocked everything else and all his senses. He was in a stupor for a long time.

Shin stared at Huian for God knew how long, and after a long period of silence, the only thing that he uttered was, “What?”

Now the panic finally set in Huian as she realized that she blurted out the truth.

Of course, she never thought to hide it from him, but she was still thinking about how to break the news to him. But, now, she suddenly said it herself without carefully planning the conversation she wanted to do with him once they returned to Beijing.

“You are pregnant?”

Her heart pounded in her chest with speed akin to a bullet train.

“Yes…”

Shin was still in disbelief, and now it was finally sinking in his mind that she wasn’t joking.

“Y-you are pregnant…because of that night?”

Huian gritted her teeth. “What else could it be? That was the only night we sl-…we…slept together…” the last two words were barely audible.

Shin took a sharp breath. He clearly remembered that night as if it was just yesterday. Like hell he could forget what happened between them!

His emotions were inexplicable to him. He was still partly in disbelief while a strange excitement also bubbled inside his chest that made him so overwhelmed that he was close to crying himself.

Shock, happiness, joy, tears; every emotion attacked him with their full strength.

“You are pregnant…you are pregnant…Oh my God, I am going to become a father!”

Shin covered his face with his hands, and his knees went weak as he collapsed on the ground. Through the gaps in his fingers, Huian saw his tears and felt her heart squeeze.

Huian slowly bent on her knees too. She hesitated for a moment before she slowly raised her hands and gently touched his hands.

Shin looked at her, smiling as tears rolled down his cheeks. He wanted to say so many things, but everything was getting jumbled up in his mind. He didn’t know where to begin and what to say first.

“I…I…don’t know what to say…I…Thank you…”

The last words were almost a whisper.

She softly asked, “Thank you for what?”

Shin’s smile faltered as he was crying too, “Thank you for telling me this…” he laughed in a self-deprecating manner, “the last time I didn’t even know when my child started to breathe and when it already left the world.”

Huian teared up. She knew he was talking about Mu Shuchun, who had aborted her and Shin’s child to become a model. At that time, she didn’t even tell Shin about her pregnancy and decided to kill their child that struck a huge blow on him. Shin broke up with her, and Mu Shuchun went her separate ways for her career.

That incident of losing his child hurt him so hard that he could not open up to anybody else in the past seven years. He never bothered to find another woman or get in another relationship.

“I am going to be a father…I finally know how it feels. I finally understand the excitement and thrill. I-I don’t have enough words to describe…”

Shin broke down into tears. What happened almost seven years back was so traumatic to him that he was hardly able to digest it that this moment was real. This wasn’t his illusion, and this wasn’t his dream.

Shin held her hands and squeezed her palms in his. “When did you come to know?”

“Last week. I felt dizzy, and I realized that I was…” her cheeks flushed in red, “late in my periods, so I bought some pregnancy strips. That’s when I…”

“Last week? Why didn’t you tell me immediately? Why did you wait?”

Huian was nervous. “I-I don’t know if you would…I was terrified of your reaction…”

“Huh?” Shin blinked his eyes.

“I didn’t know if you will accept our baby. I mean, what happened between us,” once again her cheeks flushed hard, “was on the spur of the m-moment. We are not dating, and I…”

Shin suddenly let go of her hands and pulled her in his arms instead.

Huian startled for a moment but soon began crying once again. It was finally as if a huge burden was let off her shoulders. For the last seven days, she was constantly worrying about Shin’s reaction, and the worry and the anxiety of it alone didn’t let her have a wink of sleep.

Shin hugged her tighter. “You are stupid.”

Huian cried even more. “How can you call me stupid? Do you know I didn’t have a decent sleep in so many days and all because of you!”

Shin chuckled. “That’s why I asked why didn’t you tell me immediately? You could have saved yourself so much trouble. And it’s not good to lack sleep these days. And also, why would you be worried about my reaction? I know we just…got into the moment that night, but I never regretted once what happened between us. This child is because of that night. How can I ever reject it?”

Then he thought of something and suddenly froze.

“I-Is it that you…”

He became paler as he spoke.

Huian frowned and raised her head to look at him. “What I?”

“Are you having second thoughts about the baby? Don’t you w-want it?”

Huian hit him hard in the chest.

“You are really stupid. If I were having second thoughts, then why would I be so nervous about your reaction? I thought you wouldn’t want it, so…”

“Why wouldn’t I want it?”

“Yeah, that is my question to you too!”

Silence.

Then both of them burst into laughter, but their eyes were still shining with tears.

Huian sniffled and wiped her tears. “It’s not because of the night. I…I don’t know what you feel about me,” she lowered her head in embarrassment, “I didn’t want you to accept the baby under pressure…especially if you had no,” she felt her heart tighten at that thought, “…no feelings for me.”

Shin said nothing for a while, and Huian was getting surer with each passing moment that it was true.

Huian was having a thousand thoughts in her mind about his feelings for her when she suddenly sensed her head raise and felt Shin’s thin lips press on hers.

Her eyes widened, and she couldn’t move as if she was paralyzed. Shin pulled her towards him more until their chests collided, and his lips started delving deeper and deeper. He turned his head to the right to get more access to her pink lips and darted his tongue out to trace her luscious length with his wetness. He chomped on her lower lip until it had become red and swollen.

The kiss turned even more passionate as he applied more pressure on her lips. She was getting breathless due to lack of oxygen, but Shin didn’t stop. He ravaged every nook and corner of her lips, and that refreshed the memories of that night.

He never once forgot how they had made love, what were her expressions when he kissed and left her marks on her naked body or how she moaned when he entered her again and again and thrusted inside her core as if there was tomorrow.

Her tears of pleasure were still imprinted in his mind, and that was the only thing that his mind wandered off to every time.

Shin finally pulled back after a long time. Huian took a deep breath, her chest heaving up and down with her face that had turned all crimson. The lipstick was completely smudged and off track. It took a few moments to come out of her stupor.

Shin gently cupped her face and made her face him.

“I know what I was doing that night, Huian. I wasn’t under the influence of any drug. I was in my complete senses when we made love. And so were you.”

Huian blushed hard, and her throat choked.

“I wouldn’t have slept with you when I was in all my senses and completely aware of my actions if I didn’t have feelings for you. I slept with you BECAUSE I have feelings for you. It’s not otherwise. And I wanted to confess it the next morning as soon as possible, but…” he narrowed his eyes and pinched her chin, “somebody already ran away. You didn’t even let us have any conversation.”

Huian’s eyebrow twitched. She felt embarrassed. “I am sorry…I didn’t mean to leave…really. I wanted to talk to you too, but I don’t know how it started, and I thought maybe I…you know, kind of initiated it, and you might be angry at me.”

She bit her lips. “I was freaked out. I thought you would be mad at me and tell me to cut off all contact with you. I didn’t want to hear that from you, so I couldn’t help but panic and run away. I…didn’t want to hear that you regretted it.”