Comprehension Ability: I Forge a Villainous Longevity Family

Chapter 684: Chapter 504: Chen Zhixing’s Loss of Self_2

Sos pondered.

The two of them watched as Chen Zhixing laughed heartily in front of them for a long time.

Finally, after an unknown period, Chen Zhixing stopped smiling and softly said to the two who showed concern in their eyes:

"I sense that my crisis of losing myself has already begun."

Bai Yu’s expression froze.

Crisis of losing oneself?

Now?

"How is that possible! You’re still so young!!"

After a calm consideration, Bai Yu couldn’t help but exclaim.

It’s important to know that Bai Yu, who is just over a millennium old, has yet to face the crisis of losing oneself!!!

To lose oneself, to lose self-identity!

For ordinary cultivators in the Celestial Profound Realm, this is something they would never experience, mainly because most cultivators have lifespans that are too short for the crisis of losing oneself to occur. It usually triggers between the ages of fifteen hundred and twenty-two hundred, unless they are emotionally detached demonic cultivators.

Because, at that stage, a cultivator’s life is long enough, their accumulated memories vast, coupled with the passing of family and friends, making everything familiar seem alien, making it feel like he should remain in the past as if the present is no longer his or their world. The current world seems unrelated to him.

These emotional fluctuations lead to the emergence of the crisis of losing oneself!

So, what’s Chen Zhixing’s situation?

"Zhixing, could it be that you’ve misread the signs? It doesn’t make sense; there’s no precedent for something like this happening before, not even for demonic cultivators, who generally only face this crisis after three hundred years... let alone...."

"My sense of time has started to blur, and I find myself becoming indifferent to people’s deaths. Although this is partly due to my nature, I know my crisis of losing oneself should have already begun."

When he said this, Chen Zhixing did not show any signs of fear.

To lose oneself, to lose self-identity, even if he truly lost himself, it wouldn’t mean the end of him.

At most, he would become something akin to Sos, though perhaps even more emotionally detached, but this didn’t seem particularly significant to Chen Zhixing.

After all, the subconscious common sense inherited from his previous life influenced him, as long as his body isn’t destroyed and his memories aren’t severely fragmented, he is still considered alive.

Therefore, the crisis of losing oneself is just that to him.

Highly resistant.

But!

Not entirely unacceptable.

Seeing Bai Yu still trying to console him, Chen Zhixing shook his head and chuckled lightly: "Don’t overthink it, it’s just the beginning; even if I truly lose myself, it won’t be until a hundred years later. I’m only thirty-one now and already reached sequence five, so perhaps I won’t need a hundred years to live past the Longevity Realm, and then perhaps the so-called crisis of losing oneself can no longer trouble me."

"Zhixing...."

"What’s with that expression, don’t forget, I still have the title of Demon Venerable in the Celestial Profound, and I’m considered a progenitor of the Demon Tao. It’s quite normal to face this crisis earlier, don’t make it so sentimental, okay?"

Seeing Bai Yu looking both worried and anxious, Chen Zhixing didn’t know what to say.

Off to the side, Sos, after getting a general understanding of the conversation between the two, laughed and offered a suggestion:

"Mr. Chen, you’re discussing the crisis of losing oneself with Ms. Bai, which is realizing you’re slowly losing your primary personality, right? If so, I can offer some personal suggestions, though these are from a god’s perspective, I think, they might have some uses for you both."

"Oh?" Chen Zhixing’s eyes lit up at the words: "Sos, do gods have such troubles as well?"

"Yes, we do. Although historically in the Cosmic Realm, perhaps only I have had such thoughts. Actually, I wasn’t combating the loss of self but the overpowering apocalyptic will within me, which forced me to use methods to strengthen my own will... Hmm, will is probably what you discuss as humanity."

"More or less." Chen Zhixing nodded, will doesn’t necessarily equate to humanity, but those with strong willpower generally maintain their humanity well.

"Then I think, Mr. Chen, you might try setting a necessary goal to achieve or finding a faith to invest yourself in. As you see, I’m using this method to counter my instincts, using goals as endpoints to avoid divine disorientation, and faith as ropes to prevent deviation on the grand path... Of course, I know it might be difficult for you to believe in deific entities, but... if the opportunity arises, you might try my approach."

Sos seriously offered his suggestion, though the thought of a natural god teaching a Longevity Realm cultivator how to maintain humanity might seem laughable to most.

After all, gods, especially naturally born ones, inherently have the sparsest humanity, some don’t even possess personal consciousness...

Sos might be an exception, yet even so, to Chen Zhixing and Bai Yu, there seemed little humanity present in Sos.

"Thank you, Sos, I’ll try your method."

Chen Zhixing agreed with a smile, whether he’d truly attempt it...

As a traveler reborn under the red flag, were he to truly adopt a belief... Marx?

What else!

Growing up with patriotic education, what other belief could he have besides Marx!

But bringing this predecessor into a fantasy world seems a bit disrespectful, uh, doesn’t quite fit the theme either.

As for setting a goal for himself.

If anything, this point could help Chen Zhixing a bit, even though he’s unsure what in this world could serve as a defined goal. If it really must count as one, then... live longer?

Immortality?

Chen Zhixing pondered, seems like only these two words are worth pursuing, the rest such as past ideals, desired things, sweet romance, family bonds, family prosperity... these don’t seem very important to him.

Chen Zhixing even thought, even immortality is not something he yearns for deeply.

After a moment of silence, Chen Zhixing lightly laughed.

"Immortality is not my wish, if I had a wish, it would be to explore more landscapes in my lifetime, which may require a longer lifespan, so I have to pursue immortality along the way."

"What Mr. Chen said makes sense, longevity for you and me isn’t something distant, if living longer is the anchor, it might lead to a quicker loss of will."

Sos smiled, offering Primal’s realization.

His words made Bai Yu purse her lips.

Longevity unimportant?

Immortality foremost!

Only an almost non-humanity natural deity like Sos would think lifespan is unimportant since his birth was aided by the World Consciousness, meaning even in death he’d return to the World Consciousness, hardly final death!

In other words, someone like Sos, with the Golden Nature of a fully realized living will, would in Celestial Profound terms be a naturally nearly complete Taoist Lord!

Missing only the completion of his task, before returning to the Heavenly Dao, to transcend humanity!

Then, transcended cultivators reform through Star Sea Rules, obtaining what countless cultivators seek—beyond Longevity!

"I hope you, Mr. Chen, can adjust your state, hmm, when you’re ready, I’d like to further discuss the Cosmic Realm’s structural change we talked about before. Please rest assured, I’ve prepared a thank-you gift sufficient for your satisfaction."

Sos, originally wanting to inquire about Chen Zhixing’s views on the slave distribution system, decided to pick another time seeing Chen Zhixing’s gloomy state.

Because Sos thought it unwise to bother Chen Zhixing right now.

As for how long Chen Zhixing needs for adjustment... waiting isn’t a boring concept to Sos.