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I’m a bit stingy…
Shao Cixin isn’t a fool. Of course, she understands what Wen Zhihan means.
But she always felt that something was off, something she couldn’t put her finger on.
Whenever she pondered it, Wen Zhihan’s words would play automatically in her head, flowing logically, making perfect sense, and impossible to refute.
Shao Cixin looked up at Wen Zhihan.
She saw her elegantly seated with her legs crossed, at ease, gentle as the wind.
There wasn’t a trace of desire towards her in her demeanor. It was as if they were having a formal meeting, and the sole purpose of the meeting was to discuss how to perfectly execute their project of displaying their affection.
Maybe she was overthinking…
Shao Cixin thought so, slowly letting go of her doubts.
Moreover, she wasn’t at all repelled by this proposal. Instead, she felt that if it was with Wen Zhihan, then it was okay.
It’s probably because Wen Zhihan is beautiful and harmless…
“Understood,” Shao Cixin said, propping her head with her elbow, “You mean that aside from repaying our debts, we should also be closer, get familiar with each other, so that when we’re on a program, our act won’t be exposed, right?”
Wen Zhihan stood up and sat down by the bed, her gaze lowered, her voice gentle as if soothing someone, “Can Cixin do that?”
Shao Cixin removed her hand and laid down, looking at her. She suddenly laughed, “Why not? President Wen, you underestimate me.”
From the beginning, when Wen Zhihan touched her head and she reflexively avoided it, to now, when they’ve become bed partners and friends, they’ve grown so close that physical intimacy was not an issue.
Moreover, this was a necessary sacrifice; you can’t catch a wolf without giving up the lamb[1].
Without adding some realism, how can they convince their parents and that scummy woman that their love is stronger than gold, more genuine than pure gold?
“It’s just a kiss. I can do it now. Come on!”
Shao Cixin turned around, enthusiastically approaching Wen Zhihan.
The distance between them closed abruptly.
Their eyes met, their breaths intertwining.
Neither retreated from this lingering gaze.
Shao Cixin, hands propped on the bed, leaned forward, gently planting a thoughtless kiss on Wen Zhihan’s soft lips.
As she thought, she didn’t mind it – not with Wen Zhihan.
The kiss felt like the beginning of an embrace, with Wen Zhihan slowly reaching out to wrap her waist, drawing them closer.
Their eyes locked in the silent ambiance.
Their gazes tenderly brushed over each other’s brows, skin, and lips, as beautiful as the most enchanting flower in the world, captivating one’s heart and soul.
Maybe the atmosphere was just too good; they wanted to forget everything and dive a little deeper.
Not to get accustomed, not to show affection, but simply because they wanted to kiss each other.
Their lips met tenderly, intertwining passionately.
The kiss was like a blazing fire, burning fervently.
The aggressive approach, the scorching desire[2], quickly stripped away all reason, leaving a hazy look in their eyes.
Shao Cixin panted lightly, her eyes half-lidded, looking at the woman above her.
She couldn’t help but reach out, gently touching the corner of Wen Zhihan’s eyes.
Those deep, clear, and enchanting blue eyes…
If they were gems, they’d be the most precious treasures in the world.
And in those gem-like eyes, her own reflection was the only thing she saw.
How wonderful it would be if those beautiful eyes always held only her…
Shao Cixin’s fingers paused, retracting as if burned.
She turned her face away hurriedly, feeling a hint of guilt.
What was I just thinking?
Am I out of my fucking mind?
No, no, stay calm, Shao Cixin. Don’t get swayed by emotions or break the agreement!
It must be because Wen Zhihan is too beautiful. Beauty can be deceptive; lust blinds the mind[3]– yes, that’s it!
Having found an excuse to justify herself, Shao Cixin felt relieved.
— That was close, thank god it’s not affection.
“Cixin.”
That gentle voice sounded again.
“What’s wrong?”
Shao Cixin slowly turned her head back, looking at Wen Zhihan’s calm face. She said, “Wen Zhihan, you’re too beautiful. It’s too easy to have an accident being this pretty.”
Hearing this, Wen Zhihan chuckled, pulling Shao’s hair back gently, “What could possibly happen?”
Shao Cixin replied, “Well… your drawer could be filled with love letters, for example.”
Wen Zhihan smiled, “Not anymore.”
Shao Cixin nodded, “True.”
But in the next moment, Wen Zhihan changed her tone, suddenly asking, “Cixin, are you falling for me?”
Without hesitation, Shao Cixin denied quickly, “No!”
“Hmm?”
“Absolutely not! Remember, I, Shao Cixin made a vow!”
“?”
“If I ever fall in love again, I’d be a dog!”
“…”
Wen Zhihan chuckled, patting her head, “That’s not exactly a serious vow.”
This vow was milder than those swearing misfortunes and left room for regret.
But seeing her determination… she probably won’t have regrets.
Shao Cixin felt relieved that she had saved their agreement.
Honestly, she didn’t dare to imagine what would happen if she really fell for Wen Zhihan and Wen Zhihan found out.
The agreement would be broken. Wen Zhihan, with her sense of contract, might be quite upset, right? Maybe she could even witness an angry President Wen?
Upon this thought, she immediately cut off her wild imagination.
No point pondering events that haven’t happened. Just live the present, do the daily closeness routine with her, and that’s it!
…
With Wen Zhihan’s company, Shao Cixin spent a very harmonious and happy New Year at the Wen residence.
On the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, they left the Wen residence and returned to their shared home.
Having no work, they leisurely did their own things.
Wen Zhihan sat in the living room on the sofa reading a magazine.
After a while, Shao Cixin came out of the wardrobe room, circled around to the front of the sofa, and leaned down to pin her down.
“Chū” She gave her a peck on the lips.
Ever since the two agreed to be closer to each other, Shao Cixin became very proactive, occasionally popping out to give her a kiss, trying to form a habit.
Then, after kissing, she would turn and leave immediately, without a hint of lingering, as if treating her like an NPC in a task-clearing game.
Wen Zhihan touched her own lips, looking back at the carefree Shao Cixin, and couldn’t help but chuckle.
After a while, Shao Cixin returned.
She sat down at the other end of the sofa, then slowly lay down, and in a blink of an eye, she occupied most of the sofa.
Wen Zhihan said nothing, calmly turning a page of her magazine.
After a moment, a fair foot was gently placed on her thigh.
She turned to look, only to see Shao Cixin propping up her head, the collar of her loose pajamas wide open, unintentionally revealing a large swath of snow-white skin.
“Senior,” Shao Cixin asked with a smile, “do you want to do something adults should do?”
Since she returned to Feng City, she had been busy with rehearsals and recording, and every day she came home, took a shower, and went straight to bed. She never had a chance to “repay the debt”.
Being considerate, Wen Zhihan didn’t rush her. But as their “debt” piled up day by day, if this went on, she would be burdened with a huge “debt”!
So since they both had time now, they naturally couldn’t miss an opportunity to “break their vegetarian diet”[4].
While speaking, Shao Cixin rubbed Wen Zhihan’s leg with her foot.
Wen Zhihan smiled gently, put down the magazine, and softly grasped that delicate and beautiful ankle, “Sure.”
…
Shao Cixin sat on the sofa, her eyebrows slightly furrowed, the breath she exhaled filled with desire.
Her hazy gaze looked forward, where she faintly saw their reflections on the sleek, dark TV screen.
Wen Zhihan knelt before the sofa, offering her kisses and everything else.
Shao Cixin let out a soft moan and, unable to help herself, lowered her eyes to look at Wen Zhihan, meeting the latter’s gaze.
Oddly enough, even in such a position, Wen Zhihan did not appear submissive. She still exuded assertiveness, as if she was in control of everything.
Unconsciously, Shao Cixin stroked Wen Zhihan’s perfect face, her gaze following her movements, tilting her head back to meet Wen Zhihan’s lips.
Compared to their usual kisses, this one was more intense and passionate.
Whatever was real or false, whatever had become habitual, was cast aside by Shao Cixin. All she wanted now was Wen Zhihan, all of her.
By the time she opened her eyes again, she didn’t even realize when she had laid down.
The two silently stared at each other.
Wen Zhihan’s fair face flushed, and as she breathed shallowly between her beautiful lips, her eyes conveyed deep emotions, reminiscent of a beguiling rose, utterly enticing.
Shao Cixin couldn’t resist touching Wen Zhihan’s face, her fingertips lightly brushing across her lips, chin, and collarbone…
She pleased Wen Zhihan with practiced ease.
Countless intimate moments made them more familiar with each other’s bodies than anyone else, knowing precisely how to delight one another.
Watching the expressions on Wen Zhihan’s face slowly change, hearing her softly call her name and express her desire for her, Shao Cixin’s heart was tightly wrapped in immense satisfaction.
She cherished every second of their intimate moments.
Indeed, she not only appreciated beautiful things2 but also reveled in being with such a gorgeous person.
Regardless of how many bed partners Wen Zhihan had had before, now she only had Shao Cixin.
In this moment, they belonged to each other.
Wen Zhihan leaned over to kiss Shao Cixin’s soft earlobe, whispering seductively, “Cixin, hurry.”
Their fingers intertwined tightly, inseparable. Wen Zhihan’s warm breath tickled her ear, “I want more of you.”
Shao Cixin felt weak all over in an instant3. How could anyone resist such an alluring senior?
“For you,” Shao Cixin, her rationality completely overtaken, murmured sweet nothings into her ear, “I’m all yours, sister.”
Wen Zhihan paused slightly, then softly laughed, “All yours?”
Shao Cixin obediently responded, “Yes, all yours, sister.”
Wen Zhihan said gently, “Then you can’t go with anyone else.”
“Of course not,” Shao Cixin immediately promised, “Rest assured, I’ll never have another bed partner again!”
Wen Zhihan: “…”
She couldn’t help but chuckle softly, a touch of helplessness evident in her blue eyes.
“I’m glad to hear you say that,” she whispered.
Shao Cixin hugged her joyfully, making her even more enamored.
After their passionate interlude, Shao Cixin lay beside Wen Zhihan, quietly looking at her exceptionally enchanting face.
After a while, she suddenly felt a little uncomfortable and couldn’t help but ask, “Wen Zhihan, what about you?”
Wen Zhihan didn’t follow her train of thought, “What?”
Shao Cixin looked down, observing the reddening marks on her collarbone, and slowly said, “I won’t find a second bed partner, but will you?
“After all, our agreement didn’t specify that we couldn’t see other people…”
Shao Cixin and Wen Zhihan had indeed agreed earlier that during their public display of affection, their needs would be met by each other. However, if Wen Zhihan truly found someone else, as long as their relationship wasn’t exposed to the public, Shao Cixin really had no grounds to object.
Even if it did get exposed, what could she possibly do?
Their relationship was a sham, and the authority over the agreement lay in Wen Zhihan’s hands. If Wen Zhihan wanted to, she could break their pact at any moment…
Wen Zhihan looked into her eyes and asked, “Do you not want me to see someone else?”
Shao Cixin fell silent for a few moments, then muttered apologetically, “Wen Zhihan, I am a bit stingy…”
She continued, “I know I don’t have the right to dictate what you do, but in my heart, I truly don’t want you to be intimate with anyone else. I hope you can be exclusive with me in this aspect – of course! I mean, while maintaining this sort of relationship with me, I don’t want you to have other bed mates…”
After saying this, she carefully looked at Wen Zhihan.
It was a boundary she shouldn’t have crossed; she knew she was in the wrong.
She wasn’t sure why she had blurted out those words, but she had spoken and acted on those feelings.
Suddenly, she heard a gentle chuckle, as tender as always.
Following that, Wen Zhihan’s hand rested on her face, caressing it softly.
“I only have you,” Wen Zhihan solemnly assured her. “There won’t be anyone else.”
Author’s Note: She messed up.
She’s starting to fall in love without even realizing it!
- [1] “舍不孩子套不住狼” (Shě bù háizi tào bù zhù láng) is a Chinese proverb which means one can’t catch a wolf without giving up a lamb, indicating necessary sacrifice to achieve a goal.
- [2] “欲/望” (Yù/wàng) here indicates a deliberate censorship of the word “desire” in the context.
- [3] “美色惑人，色令智昏” (Měisè huò rén, sè lìng zhì hūn) translates to “Beauty can be deceptive; lust blinds the mind”. It expresses the idea that one can be easily influenced or deceived by physical attraction.
- [4] “break their vegetarian diet” (开荤) – A colloquial slang meaning to engage in intimate or sensual activities. The literal translation means “to start eating meat” after being vegetarian, used here metaphorically.
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