Incurable Pain

IP Chapter 76.2

Incurable Pain | Chapter 76.2

Yu Yuan stood up, a hint of weariness hidden well in his eyes.

“Of course, you can come back whenever you want.”

Yu Luoyin fell silent, then asked after a moment, “Where’s Mom? Is she home?”

Yu Yuan was taken aback by Yu Luoyin’s inquiry about Gu Yan. Then, he sighed.

“She’s at home.”

Yu Yuan looked up at the stairs. Clearly, Gu Yan was upstairs. He rubbed his temples with a hint of a headache.

“Your mom hasn’t been feeling well lately. She’s not in a good mood. You… go see her.”

So, Yu Yuan was home because Gu Yan was sick.

That explained it.

Yu Luoyin’s brows furrowed slightly, and he quickly climbed the stairs. When he reached Gu Yan’s door, he knocked, hearing a hoarse “come in” from inside. He pushed the door open and walked in.

Gu Yan was leaning against the headboard. Less than a week had passed since Yu Shiqin’s engagement banquet, but she seemed to have lost weight, her face pale.

Yet, there was no sign of illness in her demeanor. It seemed her melancholy stemmed from something deeper.

She saw Yu Luoyin, and there was a clear moment of surprise in her usually cold voice.

“Why did you decide to come today?”

“Can’t I?”

Yu Luoyin walked over and poured her a glass of water, his tone casual.

“You’re sick. Why didn’t you call me? Forgot I’m a doctor?”

Gu Yan tightened her fingers around the slender glass, saying nothing.

In fact, she wasn’t really sick. She just suddenly felt very tired, very exhausted, and just wanted to lie in bed and rest without wanting to get up. But it seemed like she appeared ill in others’ eyes.

Could it be that her usual dominance made it seem like she would never tire?

At her age, Gu Yan had always enjoyed such compliments, but now, she suddenly felt lost.

This confusion was no less than the shock she felt when Bai Xunyin spoke those words to her at the winery.

Her desire for control, Yu Luoyin’s psychologist… Gu Yan felt a bit embarrassed to face Yu Luoyin, even though he was her son.

They say there’s no overnight grudge between parents and children.

But the estrangement between Yu Luoyin and them wasn’t just a “night” anymore; it was countless years and months, a desolation that Gu Yan felt was irreparable.

“Mom, I came this time because I want to hear you tell me the truth.”

Yu Luoyin sat on the chair by the window, slightly lowering his gaze to look at his slender fingers, pressing them slowly, as if doing psychological preparation for himself— he wanted to reconcile with himself and his mother, to be calm and peaceful.

Facing Gu Yan’s slightly stunned gaze, he raised his head.

“I heard your conversation with Yinyin that day.”

Gu Yan’s pupils suddenly contracted, and her fingers involuntarily tightened on the sheets beneath her.

It’s ridiculous to say, but she actually felt nervous in front of her son.

“I asked Yinyin, she said you didn’t say anything excessive. Is that true?”

Yu Luoyin looked at her steadily, with a few rare words of honesty in his heart.

“This is a knot in my heart, very important to me. I hope you can tell me the truth.”

Whatever the result, he could accept it.

Gu Yan closed her eyes. In recent days, she had been recalling the scene from six years ago incessantly. Now it was like second nature to her.

After a while, her voice, somewhat hoarse, opened—

“Your condition at the time was not right. I suspected there might have been outside influences, so I had my confidant check it out.”

“That night when I found out you were in the hospital, I rushed from the lab to the hospital. You were in the ward, and outside was that girl… it was Bai Xunyin.”

“At first sight, I had a feeling that she was the girl who couldn’t speak in the investigation material, even though she had already recovered her voice by then.”

“Maybe it’s a woman’s subconscious sixth sense. I suspected you were in a relationship, and I was against young love. I thought it was another form of ‘losing oneself to romance,’ and I didn’t want you to lose sight of what was important at such a young age.”

As she spoke, Gu Yan paused for a moment, with a self-deprecating smile.

“But I didn’t expect a young girl to see through it.”

Yu Luoyin narrowed his eyes in confusion.

“In fact, I should have thought back then that Bai Xunyin wasn’t an ordinary girl. She was purer than us, and she had seen more…” Gu Yan murmured.

“I asked her to leave you because I didn’t want my son to be influenced by a girl. I thought she would cry and beg me, after all, everyone in our family basically knows what kind of situation we are in.”

Climbing up to this ‘high branch’ of Yu Luoyin’s, didn’t she want to gain something from it?

Yu Luoyin listened, feeling a premonition in his heart, but he still asked, “And then?”

“She didn’t say anything, she agreed.”

Gu Yan smiled faintly, with a hint of self-blame in her voice, a sigh that was almost imperceptible.

“She only had one request, which was to wait until after the college entrance examination to discuss this matter. She didn’t want your grades to be affected during that time… I’m not as good as her.”

Bai Xunyin was right. She hadn’t considered Yu Luoyin’s feelings at all.

Even a young girl was more considerate than her, a mother.

Gu Yan still remembered Bai Xunyin’s ‘request’ vividly at the time, and later, her consistency with it was even more memorable.

She understood why her son would be infatuated with that girl.

Yu Luoyin finally pieced together what had happened back then. His black eyes were murky and unclear, a bit dazed.

But he could clearly feel his palms tingling, his blood boiling.

Separated by more than ten kilometers, Yu Luoyin already wanted to embrace Bai Xunyin.

“Yu Luoyin, give us a chance to make amends.”

Gu Yan looked at Yu Luoyin, her eyes brightened as if she had encountered a flower in a desperate situation, her heart pounding before steadying herself and saying seriously—

“Your father and I were indeed irresponsible. We both admit it, and we once tried to arrange for you and your brother to marry into the family, but that all fell apart.”

“We have no right to control you, nor will we make you do anything you don’t want to do anymore.”

“In fact, I really like that girl Bai Xunyin. When can we… officially meet?”

Yu Luoyin was not surprised to hear this. He wouldn’t be surprised if anyone liked Bai Xunyin.

His girl was unbelievably good, born to be loved by thousands, but fate played a joke on her, making her go through hardships. But he would cherish her in the future.

“I will tell her.”

Yu Luoyin didn’t want to wait a moment longer, he just wanted to hurry back to find Bai Xunyin. He suddenly stood up, but his tall figure paused before leaving.

“I’ve been learning to cook recently.”

Yu Luoyin turned his head slightly and said to Gu Yan on the bed, “I’ll bring you soup tomorrow, I’m leaving.”

Hearing Gu Yan recount the true process of what happened in the hospital six years ago, Yu Luoyin’s thoughts involuntarily returned to that thrilling midnight six years ago.

Like a midnight bell, at that night, they seemed to have been destroyed and redeemed at the same time.

Yu Luoyin admitted that he had hated that night, hated Bai Xunyin for changing his college major without telling him, and even hated his own youthful powerlessness to change the world.

But hatred couldn’t compare to love. He loved her, so after those torturous months, the ‘hatred’ became ‘regret.’

Regret for not cherishing it more when it was there.

Regret for not being able to be by her side when she was most in need.

Regret for the countless ‘why’s that could not be answered.

Bai Xunyin, are you still waiting for me?

“Xiao Bai, I’m coming back.”

Sleepyblue’s corner:

I can’t help but feel thankful that this was the case for both of them, that even with the countless “what if’s” they still met and got back together in the end. Because not all can be that lucky, especially in real life.