My Beloved

Chapter 56 - HAN LUO'S SELFISHNESS

Mo Yuan wanted to bring the peeled egg to Han Luo, when he heard some people bickering at each other. He was stunned, thinking that neither Butler Noah nor Han Luo were the type to argue with each other. Well – that's what he thought until he eavesdropped. Hearing how the two of them were talking to each other, Mo Yuan's eyes became rounder than a flying saucer. He thought that his ears were deceiving him.

When Han Luo was bathing, he went to the room to put the bowl down, but after hearing their conversation, he decided not to. He quickly left before Han Luo came out and waited outside. His brain wasn't working properly. Never in a million years had he thought that a small belle flower would turn into a hot green chili. He didn't know if she was manipulating everyone or tried to hide her true self for some other reason. However, he found her witty and more intriguing than the other children he had met. She was certainly interesting.

Thinking about that made Mo Yuan feel a rush of delight and excitement. He wished to know more about her and wanted to see her true self more and more. He couldn't help but chuckle. He murmured to himself, "Little devil, I'll show you what happens when you trick your big brother Yuan."

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"Big brother Ming is going to London?!" Han Luo exclaimed. After pondering for a while, she asked worriedly, "Is London as far as mommy's grave or daddy's hospital?" She didn't know where London was. But the way Ma Rui said it, she felt that it was as far as where her parents were. If that were true, then she couldn't hang out with her big brother Ming anymore.

Ma Rui's body stiffened. She didn't think that Han Luo would think that way. Of course, a child is a child – how far does her knowledge go? Han Luo could only tell anything by what she experienced. To her, Australia was closer than her mother's grave and father's hospital, because she missed them more than the Australia visit. Ma Rui felt guilty for not understanding her. She patted her small head and said, "Luo'er, you don't have to feel sad. You can always talk to your big brother by phone. You can have a video chat. You can joke and sing –"

"But can we play together? Can he carry me on his back? Can he feed me if he is far?" Han Luo asked while grabbing onto Ma Rui's sleeve. If she were to say "yes", Han Luo wouldn't be sad.

Ma Rui bit down her lower lip and said, "I'm sorry, Luo'er. Your big brother can't… do so. But for a better life, he has to leave this place."

Han Luo let go of her sleeve. She tried to imagine her life without her big brother. She realized that it would be pretty dull without him. But she still had big brother Yujin and big brother Yuan, so she did try her best to stay happy. She nodded and mumbled, "All right, I'll play with big brother Yujin and big brother Yuan from now on."

Ma Rui paused as her fists clenched. "Luo'er, they are all leaving… all three of them…"

Han Luo's eyes widened out of horror. She couldn't think of a single day without her three big brothers. She had become so close to them that the thought of being without them made her chest hurt.

Ma Rui stroked her little head and cooed, "Don't worry, Luo'er. You can make friends here and play with them. And when you have the chance, you can go to London too."

Han Luo's eyes were watered down with tears. "I don't want to be apart from my big brothers!" she shouted, before standing up to only run out of the room.

"Luo'er!" Ma Rui called out to her, but then sighed. "It would be better to leave her alone for now." When she applied for the four of them, for some reason, Han Luo's application wasn't approved. Ma Rui didn't know what was wrong. She even used her wealth and connections, thinking that the four kids would all be guaranteed to go to the UK. However, the higher-ups didn't grant Han Luo permission to go to London. Ma Rui's frustration ate at her, yet she didn't want Han Luo to feel even more frustrated. That's when she decided to keep Han Luo to herself. She didn't want her to live with those three mobsters in the Han Mansion.

And now after talking to Han Luo, she noticed how small the little girl's world was. She was only close to her three brothers. Although she had classmates who took care of her, they weren't her friends. Ma Rui could guess it was Han Luo's three big brothers' fault, as they didn't let others get close to her. The mother thought that it would be a good time for Han Luo to have more friends.

Tang Yujin and Mo Yuan already agreed to study in London, but Han Sheng Ming didn't agree. He said he wouldn't leave his cute little Luo Luo alone. Ma Rui needed Han Luo to make him decide to study abroad. But seeing Han Luo's crying face made her heart ache. Her eyebrows furrowed in disappointment.

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"There you are. I've looked everywhere for you. Why did you run off without having breakfast?" Butler Noah came to the rose garden and found Han Luo sitting alone with her head buried in between her legs. Two white rabbits were around her eating grass. Her sadness smothered her. She had no light in her heart to play with the rabbits. Or anyone.

Butler Noah sat beside her and showed her the bowl of fruit custard. "I've made it exactly the way you like it. Do you want to taste it?" Han Luo finally looked up, her flushed face and puffy eyes clearly visible to him. He asked, "What's wrong? Why are you crying?"

"Noah… my big brothers are leaving. I can't play with them anymore," she whimpered while weeping. "I don't want them to leave me. Why does everybody I love leave me like mommy and daddy? Am I being punished because I'm a naughty girl?"

Butler Noah's expression dropped. "Where are they going? Do you know?"

Han Luo looked down. "They are going far away…"

"Why don't you go with them?"

"C-can I go?" Han Luo's eyes filled with hope.

"Of course, you can. Maybe you have to wait a little longer, but one day you'll grow up and then you can go wherever they are. You shouldn't stop them from leaving just because you'll miss them. That's called selfishness; selfishness is a bad thing."