Parallel Memory

Chapter 600: The Void Within

Silence.

After the cave collapsed and the screams faded, Zero floated once more in the endless void.

This time it was colder. Not the crisp kind of cold that pricked skin, but the hollow, marrow-deep chill that gnawed at his bones and whispered into his soul that nothing mattered anymore. Every breath was weightless, every heartbeat muffled, until even the rhythm of his own life felt like it was dissolving into the abyss.

For a while, he thought this was it. That the darkness had finally claimed him. That Xalvar had been right all along. Maybe it was better this way—better to sink into nothingness than to keep carrying the weight of blood that wasn’t even dry in his memory. He closed his eyes, surrendering to the stillness, and for the briefest moment, peace seemed possible.

But then—

A sound broke the stillness.

Not laughter. Not screams.

A single step. Firm. Measured. Its echo rippled through the void as though invisible stone lay beneath unseen feet.

Zero stirred, his head lifting sluggishly as though his very skull were forged of lead. He squinted into the black.

And then a figure emerged.

At first, only a silhouette—outlined in faint silver light, faceless, shifting like mist trying to remember form. But as it drew closer, the lines sharpened, clarity seeping into shape. Black hair. Gray eyes that reflected nothing yet saw everything. Familiar features, carved sharper, colder, steadier.

Zero’s breath caught. His pulse stuttered.

It was him.

His Earth self.

Not the timid boy who had once buried himself in circuits and screens, nor the confused shadow Zero had glimpsed when soul stability first revealed itself—but the other him. The one who had stood with terrifying ease against the Emperor of Destruction. The self who bore no hesitation, no weakness, no chains.

"Still crying?" the figure asked. His voice was flat, almost disappointed, each word resonating like a bell in the hollow void. "Pathetic."

The word cut deeper than any of Xalvar’s mockeries. Because it came not from a devil, but from himself.

Zero flinched, shoulders curling inward. His throat was raw, but the question tumbled out anyway: "W-Why are you here?"

The Earth self’s eyes gleamed in the half-light—unblinking, merciless. "Because you’d rather drown than stand. You’d rather let guilt bury you than fight. That’s not strength. That’s weakness disguised as grief."

Zero shook his head violently. "I... I can’t. They died because of me. Because I was weak—"

"Of course you were weak." The figure’s tone rose, steel on steel, blunt as a hammer. "You were a child. Children die when devils pull their strings. That’s reality." He stepped closer, shadows recoiling around him. "But here you are, years later, still bleeding for it. Still using it as your shield. Do you plan to weep every time a shadow whispers your name?"

Each word landed like a blow. Zero’s body trembled; his lips formed protests, excuses, pleas. But none of them survived the weight of that voice. The void itself seemed to still, pressing him down.

"You don’t understand," he rasped, his voice breaking.

"I understand perfectly," the Earth self snapped. Authority thundered in his tone, unyielding. "You hate yourself because it’s easier than accepting the truth. That Xalvar killed them. That devils killed them. Not you. You weren’t the blade. You weren’t the hand. You were the one left behind."

Zero’s chest heaved. Rage, grief, despair—all clashed until he could hardly breathe. "But I should have—"

"Should have what?" The figure’s voice boomed. "Fought a devil as a child? Held back blood and shadow with your bare hands? You cling to that guilt like it gives you meaning. But it doesn’t. It’s not armor—it’s chains. Chains you wrap around yourself so you don’t have to move forward. That’s why Xalvar wins every time you close your eyes. Not because he’s strong. Because you keep letting him live inside your head."

Zero froze. His hands, clenched into trembling fists, faltered. The sobs that had wracked his body only moments ago faltered, strangled into silence.

The figure crouched before him, gaze drilling into his soul. For the first time, his tone softened—just barely, enough to pierce rather than bludgeon.

"You want to honor them?" His voice was quieter, but every syllable struck with precision. "Then stop dying with them every time you remember. Stand. Carry their memory, not their blood. Let them live through you, not rot in your guilt."

The faces of his childhood friends flickered in the void, hovering at the edges of sight. For so long, they had glared at him, blamed him, dragged him into the mire. But now... their eyes shimmered with something different. Not accusation. Not cruelty. Sadness. Perhaps it was only his own heart reshaping the memory, but the change was enough to make him falter.

"I..." His voice cracked, rasping like dry leaves. He scrubbed at his tear-streaked face, still trembling but steadier now. "I don’t know if I can."

"You can." The Earth self’s certainty cut through the void like a blade through silk. His lips twisted into the faintest smirk. "Because you’re me. And I don’t break."

The void trembled, a ripple racing outward as if those words had struck its core. The whispers that had clawed at him—accusing, blaming—faded like smoke blown to wind.

And then, from the shadows, Xalvar’s voice rose one last time. Hollow. Bitter. "You think this changes anything? You’ll always be cursed. You’ll always bring death."

The Earth self turned toward the sound, eyes hard as iron. His smile sharpened, cold and defiant.

"No," he said evenly. "He’ll bring your end."

The void cracked. Light seared through its seams, sudden and violent. Shadows shrieked, scattering like ash in a storm. The suffocating pressure lifted from Zero’s chest; the chains loosened.

Zero felt the weight of his body again, heavy but no longer hopeless. The pull of reality tugged at him, insistent, warm.

The Earth self rose, stepping back into the blaze. His outline dissolved, silver light scattering like shards of glass. His final words echoed, deep and commanding:

"Stop running from what you are. Or I’ll drag you forward myself."

Zero reached toward him, desperate, but his hand grasped only empty light.

The void shattered. The cave. The blood. The screams. All dissolved into brilliance.

And then—

Breath.

Not the stench of iron and death. Not the choking cold. But air. Dusty, faint, tinged with parchment and wood oil.

Zero’s eyes fluttered open. The library ceiling blurred above him, the stained-glass glow fractured into soft colors. His cheek pressed against warmth—something steady, soft, real.

Lilith.

Her voice reached him, trembling but steady, somewhere above his pounding heartbeat. "Zero... please, wake up..."

The dream tried to cling to him, whispering chains, but his Earth self’s command rang louder: Stand.

Zero drew in a shuddering breath. His body ached, his soul burned, but for the first time in years, the weight on his chest wasn’t crushing. It was heavy still—yes—but no longer impossible to bear.

Slowly, painfully, he began to rise.