Shut Up, Malevolent Dragon! I Don’t Want to Have Any More Children With You

Vol 9. Chapter 68: An Irreplaceable Existence

Kaiser sat down on the other side of the bench, very politely keeping a certain distance from Moon.

“I was watching you for a long time just now. Everyone else was playing together, but you didn’t follow them. Is something on your mind?” Kaiser asked gently.

Moon blinked her pretty eyes. Instead of answering him directly, she forced out a smile and teased:

“Teacher Kaiser, it’s rare for you to take the initiative to start a conversation with someone.”

Back when Kaiser had still been working as a rehabilitation security guard at Saint Heath Academy, Moon and her sisters had already had plenty of contact with him.

Moon knew he was a very introverted person—quiet, unwilling to make friends, standing there every day like a wooden board.

Of course, that description was not meant as ridicule or mockery. He really was just extremely socially anxious.

That was why, when Kaiser now took the initiative to ask about her worries, Moon joked with him like this.

“My sister told me to experience life more. I figured that probably includes helping friends sort through their troubles too.”

Kaiser regarded Moon as a friend, and he regarded Noa and the others as friends as well. What he meant was that they were equals—there was no generational gap in thought, so they could speak freely.

Moon smiled faintly, withdrew her gaze, and looked down at the stuffed bear in her arms. She pinched its ear lightly and said in a quiet voice:

“You really listen to Teacher Safina a lot.”

“Because she’s my sister.”

Moon froze.

She knew that besides being socially anxious, Kaiser also had a bit of the same sister-obsession tendency as herself.

But mentioning his sister twice in three sentences felt a little… excessive.

Or maybe… there was another reason?

Moon’s mind turned quickly. After realizing this, she immediately understood why Kaiser kept bringing up the word “sister.”

“You already know why I’m sitting here alone, Teacher Kaiser.”

A faint smile rested on Little Moon’s lips. She did not feel displeased by his “pretending not to know.” On the contrary, she was actually happy that someone had noticed her low mood.

Hearing that, Kaiser let out a quiet breath and leaned back slightly against the bench.

He looked toward the artificial lake in the park, gazing at the calm surface, and slowly spoke:

“Because Noa has made new friends, and she spends more time with them than with you. So you feel that her attention and concern for you have decreased. Is that right?”

Moon’s slender, pale fingers traced circles across the fluffy face of the stuffed bear.

“It’s an objective fact that my sister has made new friends, and it’s also an objective fact that she spends less time with me,” she said softly. But I don’t think that means she cares about me any less, Teacher Kaiser.”

As she spoke, Moon lifted her head as well, following his line of sight to the lake.

“When she first became friends with Helena, I did think that way. But now I’ve grown up. I understand things better, so I don’t think like that anymore.”

Kaiser’s thoughts stirred. After a moment of silence, he said:

“But you still feel down because of it.”

Moon lowered her eyes, sighed helplessly, then nodded in admission.

“Yes. I don’t even know why. I understand all the logic, but when I see my sister having so much fun with Vivian, I just… feel a little gloomy.”

A teenage girl’s emotions had become more delicate and complicated.

In the past, Moon’s unhappiness had been simple—she believed her sister loved her less, and that was why she felt bad.

That unhappiness was pure. It had a clear cause. Anyone could see it at a glance.

But now, as Moon herself said, she understood everything—yet she still could not break free from the grip of her emotions.

She was not unhappy, nor was she truly sad. Rather, too many emotions were tangled together inside her, leaving her unable to sort them out. That was why she felt lost and helpless.

And because Moon had no experience dealing with such complex feelings, she could only single out the most obvious one—low spirits—and let it manifest outwardly.

They fell silent for a while before Kaiser slowly spoke again.

“When I was about your age—actually, maybe even younger than you—I was still living with my sister, fighting alleyway beggar kids every day just to steal food.”

Moon lifted her head and looked at him. She was quite interested in the story of these siblings from another world.

“At that time, I hadn’t awakened my abilities yet. I was very thin and weak, so whenever we fought, I had to rely on my sister.”

As Kaiser spoke, he continued to stare at the calm lake, as if he could see fragments of his past reflected on its surface.

“Every time I watched my sister get beaten black and blue by those kids, all just to snatch back a piece of bread that was about to grow mold for me, my heart would ache. That was when I swore that I would stay by her side for my entire life—protect her, and never let her be bullied again. Later, I gradually grew stronger and truly gained the ability to protect her. We immediately escaped that slum and went out into the wider world. My sister is eloquent and cheerful. In a very short time, she made many new friends. To be honest, that period was the hardest time for me mentally.”

Moon raised a brow. “Why was it the hardest?”

“Because I was just like you are now, Moon. I understood all the reasoning. I’d heard all the comforting words. But I still couldn’t accept that there were so many people around my sister, and that she could no longer be inseparable from me like before.”

Kaiser did not shy away from speaking of his immature past. He was willing to show Moon the side of himself no one else saw.

“I was already very introverted back then, and I didn’t know how to express my emotions. So that mindset lasted a long time before my sister finally noticed.”

At this point, Kaiser withdrew his gaze from the lake and looked directly at Moon.

“Do you know what my sister said to me after she found out?”

Moon shook her head.

Kaiser sighed softly and continued:

“She said that rich and varied emotions are one of the driving forces that allow people to keep living. A person can’t rely on just one or two kinds of emotions to get through an entire lifetime. No matter the age or gender, people are social creatures. We need to release emotions, and we need to receive emotions from others. Even someone as introverted as me unconsciously releases and receives emotions every day. It’s just that I placed the bond between my sister and me above everything else, while neglecting the rest. That’s what caused my social anxiety and isolation.”

As he spoke, Kaiser gently placed his hand on the stuffed bear’s head, yet his eyes never left Moon.

“It took me a very long time to understand what my sister meant. But you don’t need to go through that same struggle, Moon. I just want you to know. Whether it’s you and me, or Noa, or your parents, or your younger sisters—we are all emotional beings. And we all need many different kinds of feelings to serve as the motivation that keeps us moving forward. Noa’s willingness to make new friends proves that her heart needs different types of emotions to enrich herself. She still loves you. And after experiencing more kinds of feelings, that love for you will only grow deeper. You might not be able to understand it right now, but believe me, Moon. One day, you will know this for certain. In your sister’s heart, you will always be an irreplaceable existence.”